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What is your definition of cheating?

Kissing or touching another person besides your girlfriend/boyfriend in a romantic way.

I wish to write about a subject
I have seen before
read before
heard before
even smelled before
but have never felt before

maybe its because my hearts craves it
my heart keeps telling me how wonderful it is,
buy my mind quickly shushes it
my mind knows logically, it is not the way to go
but how long before my heart cannot be controlled?
what will happen then?

What quality in your best friend are you most envious of and why?"

Funny thing is that I have five really really awesome friends and they all have at least one trait that I wish I could posses.

1. coldness- the ability to not give damn or whine about anything.
2. outgoing personality
3. beauty- this girl is 30 on a scale of 1 to 10
4. free spirited state of heart
5. artistic ability

Well after spending a night at the ICU in a local hospital shadowing a nurse I am in love.  I fell in love with the health professions years ago but I guess I lost sight of it. I guess I lost sight of the bigger picture and got caught in mundane worthless specs of life. I love the hospital. I know I am meant to be nurse. After becoming a nurse I plan on continuing my education in the health field. I do not ever wish to leave it.
With that in mind I received the kick in the butt I needed. I guess I had forgotten all my 4 AM rotations last Spring. I guess I forgot every visit to the hospital I have had.
I can't wait to get into the nursing program.
I can't wait to save some one's life.

 
         
    Score: 16 You have a direct perception of truth. You are very keen and don't use it to take advantage. When you commit positive deeds, you don't do them to get ahead, you do positive deeds simply because it makes you feel good. Your intentions are almost always meant well and all this positive karmaic energy is bound to come back to you in a great way!

Really??? 

So according to what people saw on the local news, my used to be best friend was arrested kicking and screaming. Already with a warrant for her arrest and most likely on or carrying drugs I don't know what fate she awaits. It saddens me to think of my girl sitting in jail. It saddens my to think that the only person I have been truly close to has strayed so far of what was supposed to be. We were supposed to have an apartment together. We were supposed to go to school together. She is the only true best friend I have ever had. Yet she sits in jail like a stranger I have never seen. I miss the Abby that was sweet and caring. When the worst she did was smoke pot out of her bedroom window in her grandparent's house. She wasn't supposed to end up like her mom or her sister. She was supposed to be different. She wasn't supposed to end up with a controlling boyfriend who told her to con people and commit other crimes. My Abby was supposed to save the world or at least try. I haven't seen the video. I looked but couldn't find it. I am scared to see it. I am scared to see what she has become. To see what drugs has turned her into. To see what she let herself become. To see her mother.

So I have been dating Richard for close to seven months and he is insisted that we will never be together. I am okay with this in a way because well I am young and Richard has trust and relationship issues. Although I don't know if I am okay with it anymore. I really like him and want so badly a great relationship. I know I am not going to marry him since he against marriage and that shebang. I have never had a real relationship and I guess I just want to know what I am missing out on. I have never allowed myself to get as close as I am now. I guess I just to be the lovely, happy couple I never experienced, but just watched from the side lines. I hate that I am such a hopeless romantic. I hate that I could fall head over heals in love with Richard if he would only allow it. I hate that sometimes hes a dick and I like it. 

Heavenly Couture really cute and really cheap :D
10 great Tees - I love these shirts
No Star awesome
Karma Loop- sweet
ASOS- I found it again
Rep Codes awesome links
Observations on Lethality- funny and ironic love the last statement
Creaktif!- four guys from france interesting pieces
Killer Quiz- Take it
Rave Dances lol memories
A mother's Journey by Renee C. Byer seriously made me shed a few tears :(
phatterism *whistles*

ok im done wondering around the internet
back to homework :)

I have all the dreams in the world, I have great, realistic a path towards a greater life, I have awesome family and friends, and a guy who treats me right for right now; yet i cant seem to sit down and do the work.

I cant seem to concentrate on anyhting. My mind is going crazy from up's and down's.

I just want to feel better. :(

ok well Im done ranting against my self.

What is the worst date you've ever been on? "

A guy I barely knew took me to the movies then to his friend's home. The guy was all over me at the movies and it was gross. I am not a big fan of PDA; the guy was also really bad at kissing. at his friends house we sat there as they smoked and wached Tenacious D. I think that was the only good thing about that date. I love Jack Black. I am not a big fan of weed. The guy tried to get me to go back to his appartment but I was not having that.